Dilemma.

Assalamualaikum,

Pejam celik pejam celik almost 1 year I'm being a PhD student. And when I look back, what is my achievement so far.

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NOTHING!


To be honest, I don't know what have I done in last one year! And the answer is nothing than a bad result. Of course, some results were good but some were not. At first, I was thought that my research is quite easy and simple but it all end up like ggggrrrrrrrrr... [huh]

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Okay, This is a different stories.

Actually I am in BIG dilemma..


MAYBE, I have to go to MONASH University in Clayton, Australia for three months. This is for attachment studies. My supervisor wanted me to utilize the CO2 equipment in Monash and gain some new knowledge and experience in ILs. Of course this is like a golden opportunity for me to learn a new knowledge and gain an experience as much as I can. Right now this is still under application because I am still waiting for an approval from UTP but in Monash side they have approved. But I think, UTP will approve after all of my supervisor hardworks.

But the problem is, how about my family?

Do I have to leave my family here for 3 months!! I. Don't. Think. So..

To leave my husband, is one thing and I can handle it (I think). But to leave Delisha for 3 months is the other thing! This one I don't think so! Seriously. I can't imagine how my life without Delisha and I really sure she can't live without me too.. well, she still breastfeed.. I wanted to bring her but who gonna take care of her? My husband is working and he can't take leave for 3 months ( how I wish he could). Maybe at first, I will bring my parents but I don't think they gonna stay for 3 months there as they have a lotttt of things to do here. So, how about Delisha then? urgggghhhh... this question keep playing in my mind every single day.

 No, i'm not gonna leave her here. Oh, please!


Allah. Please help me..

Tips for mommy-to-be

Assalamualaikum semua.

Okay, harini saya sangat rajin sebab nak bagi tips yang sangat berguna to all mommy-to-be on how to handle your newborn baby, how to handle them when they cry, how to breastfeed them, how to bath them, how to.. how to.. how to.. Well, the tips is not actually from me. It is actually came from this book. Taaadaaaa

 

 

Actually this book is translated to Bahasa Melayu. Seriously, for me buku ini sangat berguna since I get pregnant until now and after on. For pregnancy women, it really helps you a lot on your diet, what you should eat, what actually happened to your body, what is the baby looks like in your tummy, what is the baby development and so on. And this book also educate you what you should do for every weeks of your pregnancy. The best thing is its explain on what you should do when your contraction came.  How should you breath during contraction, how should you breath to push the baby out. Pendek kata, semua benda dia cerita secara detail. Ops, dah nama pun buku orang putih kan, so model and gambar-gambar banyak yang sensored la kan. But who cares!! Untuk pembelajaran kot. So for me, this book is very useful to all mommy-to-be. It helps you a lot emotionally and physically.  Especially masa mula-mula lepas bersalin. Macam mana nak dukung baby, nak susukan anak, nak mandikan anak pun tak reti. Kekok katanya. Biasalah first time kan. In fact, I still depends on this book until now. Thanks to my sister who bought this book and for your information this book was handover from my eldest sister to my 2nd sister then to 3rd sister and lastly to me. Sampai lunyai-lunyai dah.. hohoho..

 

Okay tips yang kedua adalah khas untuk ibu-ibu yang bekerja yang ingin menyusukan anak menggunakan susu ibu

 

'Perah susu anda sebanyak yang boleh lepas anda bersalin'

 

Ini untuk stock susu anak anda semasa anda bekerja nanti.

 

This tips coming from my mistakes. Dulu tak ada siapa nak bagi tips dan salah diri jugak sendiri sebab tak tanya dan tak study mengenai penyusuan ni. Pam susu pun tak beli. Then lepas bersalin, breast bengkak susu sampai basah-basah baju sebab susu asyik meleleh keluar kan. Anak pulak masa tu asyik tidur je.. Masa tu tak teringat langsung pun nak perah. So, I just let it bengkak dan sumbat je small towel dalam bra sebab takut basah baju.

 

Bila anak dah sebulan barulah terkial-kial nak beli pam susu dan buat stok. Haaa.. amik kau!! Masa tu anak tu dah pandai dah.. hisap botol pun dah tak nak! Asyik nak nenennnnnn je.. Setiap 2 jam mesti merengek nak nenen. So, bilanya nak buat stok kalau dah 2 jam asyik nak nenen je? Breast pun masa tu dah tak sempat nak bengkak. Masa tu mula lah menyumpah seranah diri sendiri.. Masa susu banyak dulu kau pergi bazirkan, taknak pam untuk buat stok. Bila dah lagi 2 minggu nak masuk kerja baru terkial-kial! Time tu bila perah memang dapat sikit je la dan time tu jugaklah nak ajar anak hisap susu pakai botol. Memang dia menangis, meraung tak mahu!! Bila anak menangis macam tu, mama dia pun apa lagi, menangis la jugak!! haru betul.. Pernah jugak minta tolong suami tolong bagikan susu botol maybe anak tahu bau badan ibu dia kan. That's why dia refuse kot tapi still dia tak nak!! Hah, time tu punyalah menyesal...ish..ish... Nasib baik saya dapat sediakan 5 botol stok susu itupun setelah berhempas pulas memerah dan nasib baik bila hantar anak ke rumah pengasuh, dia nak pulak hisap susu pakai botol. Thanks to NUK bottle (saya ada cerita mengenai NUK bottle di sini). Tapi bila pengasuh bagi je lah.. Bila balik rumah, try bagi susu dalam botol, memang dia taknak sampai SEKARANG! Dan disebabkan stok susu saya tak banyak, saya perlu memerah susu setiap hari di tempat kerja time lunch and before balik kerja for tomorrow punya stok. And that is what i'm doing until now! No, i'm not complaining! Kerana disebabkan Delisha tolak susu botol dan susu formula, Alhamdulillah saya dapat berikan susu ibu sepenuhnya kepada Delisha sehingga kini. Walaupun sekarang masih lagi mencuba untuk mencari susu formula yang sesuai untuk Delisha. Almaklumlah, anak dah setahun, demand makin tinggi tapi susu makin kurang. Kesian kat anak sebab sanggup berlapar tunggu mama dia balik kerja gara-gara lapar susu.

 

So, apa pengajaran yang anda dapat dari cerita saya tadi?

 

1) Perah susu anda sejak dari lepas bersalin lagi. Jangan bila dah sebulan, dah nak masuk kerja, time tu lah kau nak perah susu bagai..

 

2) Ajar anak hisap susu botol. Kalau sesiapa yang nak fully breastfeed dan bekerja, boleh guna susu yang anda perah dan letak dalam botol susu.

 

3) Pada sesiapa yang nak campur susu ibu dengan formula milk (mungkin susu badan terhad), ajar anak minum susu formula dari awal lagi. Kalau tak,memang susah nak ajar anak minum susu formula sebab dia dah terbiasa minum susu ibu sejak lahir lagi. Sedap sangat katanya.

 

This is based from my experienced being a new mom!! Masing-masing ada pendapat dan pengalaman yang berbeza. So, it depends!

 

Just my 2cents.

 

 

 

 

 

Salam perkenalan..

Assalamualaikum

 

Haih, ini kali ke tiga saya buat blog. The 1st one was Kota Kecilku back to 2005 during my degree time in UKM. Then on 2008 i'd switched to Katerina007 which is Bila Hati Berbicara. Sebab kenapa buka blog baru, heh mestilah sebab nak buka buku baru. That time i was doing my master. So, konon nak cerita benda baru la kan. At Katerina, there are a lot of things yg i share.. Mostly pasal relationship, kawan-kawan, my master research and i do put my puisi pujangga kat sana. Ok, i admit kadang2 ada masa bila stress, atau bosan, terkeluar jugak puisi, or sajak or whatever they called. Tapi memang hentam kerapu langsung tak boleh panggil puisi. kakakaka... tapi still ok lar kan.. ada semangat kemelayuan kat situ. Then bila master dah habis, then bekerja, then kahwin, then ada anak, so i have no time to update my blog and Katerina007 hanyalah tinggal kenangan.. sob sob..

 

So, now, i sambung belajar lagi for my PhD, so i buat lagi satu blog which is yang ini la kan. Kenapa Aimy? Well, this is because, Aimy stand for our family name and of course our combination name between my name and my husband's name :) Which is Maisara and Hilmy = Aimy. So we decide, for all our lovely children have to put Aimy for their first name no matter boys or girls. Hahaha.. semangat sangat. So, our first daughter's name is Aimy Delisha. Hahaha.. Kalau nak tahu, Delisha also a combination name tau. It came from her atok atok name. My FIL name is Dali and my dad's name is Shahrom. See, nampak tak kat situ. It became Dalisha.. Well, we do check the meaning of the name. Kalau tak nanti pandai-pandai combine nama, tapi tak ada maksud pulak kan or kalo tak, bawa bad maksud. Kang tak pasal-pasal pulak kan.. So we google je Maksud Aimy Dalisha:

 

Aimy : Keberkatan

 

But Dalisha tak ada maksud. Tapi yang ada maksud hanya Delisha. Which is:

 

Delisha  : Happy and make others happy

 

Hah, so di situ lah datangnya Aimy Delisha.. haha creative tak we olls? Delisha ala-ala delicious giteww.. our beautiful, lovely, cute and kuat merengek daughter.. hahaha.. Yup, despite the Delisha's meaning is happy and make others happy, but my Delisha seems not happy at all cause she is kuat menangis type.. All she wants is me being with her alllll the time. Bayangkan dia taknak dengan orang lain. Just her mother only.. wahahaha.. not even her babah as well (kadang2 tu nasib dia nak jugak)! Tapi nasib baik dia nak dengan pengasuh dia. Kalau tak susah nak pergi kerja. Just imagine, kadang-kadang sampai tak boleh buat kerja. Nak mandi, masak, solat, hurm.. kena tunggu dia tidur dulu baru boleh buat semua tu. . Haihh.. Tapi walau apa pun, she is the best precious gift from Allah to us. We love her with all of our heart.. Tetap sayang biasalah, sapa tak sayang anak kan...? Dia lah pengubat di kala duka.. 

 

So, this is our Aimy Delisha. Time ni dia 5 months

 

 

Budak kecik yang punyalah susah nak senyum dan ketawa. Buat lah lawak, mimik muka ke, apa ke, dia hanya senyum sikit je. Dan selebihnya muka dia seolah-olah tengah berpikir, "apalah yang makcik ni buat?" hahaha.. Tapi bila dia senyum, fuhhh.. melting!!! Believe me, now Delisha dah 8 bulan, this is only (dan beberapa) picture gambar senyum dia.. yang lain tu, semua muka serius je.. Entahlah, maybe terkenan dengan perangai aku kot. Sebab masa aku mengandungkan dia, i'm just started doing my research (I was RO (research officer)). So, faham-faham je la. Dengan tak paham the research, the chemicals lambat sampai, the results was not okay, i didn't get the result and i was so stress! So, it's not good for pregnancy woman. Huhu

 

 

And this is her wanting us to buy for her this Thomas and Friends toy. This is at Toy'r'us, Midvaley. Puaslah babah dia tolak dia keliling kedai. Berhenti sikit, merengek suruh tolak lagi. Hahaha, nasib baik tak suruh mama dia. Okay, the price is of course la expensive RM300+ sebab the brand kan, tak mampula kami ni. So we decide to transfer her to the cheaper one, less than hundred but end up dia menangis.. Hohoho Amboi, dah pandai nak memilih mainan ye.. Haila.. bankrupt la.. Tapi kami tak beli pun.. Lama2 dia senyap sendiri.. woohoo

 

 

Okay, till then! Harap2 this is the last blog for me! no more tukar2 blog dah! hahaha..

 

Babai..

 

Much love,

xoxo