Salam dari Monash

Hi,

Remember my last post on the attachment studies in Monash, Australia?

And now, I'm hereee......

(hoorayyyyy)

Its been a month actually.. and another two months to go! Cepat betul masa berlalu.. Pejam celik, pejam celik.. and right now I'm still struggling on my research especially on synthesis part. Oh God, how I wish I could bring my sample from UTP so I don't have to synthesize it again. But you know, bring the chemicals with you in a flight after the MH370 tragedy and a very tight security and immigration in Australia with a dog and you have to open your luggage for checking is.. I don't think so..

*please pray for me so that I can finish my research here*

Well, do you still remember on my last post, bout who gonna take care of Delisha while I'm here..?

Tadaaaaa.. my mom! Love u mum!

And lucky, my mom will stay with me for three months and my dad he went back to Malaysia alone. Not actually alone but he went back to Malaysia with my husband and MIL, FIL. Yes, my husband came with his family for two weeks here and they all flew back to Malaysia in a same flight with abah. Nasib abah kasi mak tinggal sini.. sob sob sob.. Tapi kesian jugak kat abah sebab tinggal sorang-sorang.. love u mum and dad!

I am so busy here as I'm going for study.. So, Monday to Friday is my working day so I just got Saturday and Sunday for shopping and outing. But luckily, during the weeks when my husband and family was here, there were a public holiday with a longggggg weekend. From Friday (good Friday), Saturday, Sunday, Monday and Tuesday (Easter holiday) and Friday (Anzac day). Hooraayyy...

So we went several places like Royal Botanical garden, Werribee zoo, Brighton beach, Shopping at DFO, and others (tak ingat pulak) but basically in a city. We wanted to rent an 18 seater car to go to Philip Island but it all rent out.


I will upload the picture later..

See you in a next post..

Babai..

Dilemma.

Assalamualaikum,

Pejam celik pejam celik almost 1 year I'm being a PhD student. And when I look back, what is my achievement so far.

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NOTHING!


To be honest, I don't know what have I done in last one year! And the answer is nothing than a bad result. Of course, some results were good but some were not. At first, I was thought that my research is quite easy and simple but it all end up like ggggrrrrrrrrr... [huh]

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Okay, This is a different stories.

Actually I am in BIG dilemma..


MAYBE, I have to go to MONASH University in Clayton, Australia for three months. This is for attachment studies. My supervisor wanted me to utilize the CO2 equipment in Monash and gain some new knowledge and experience in ILs. Of course this is like a golden opportunity for me to learn a new knowledge and gain an experience as much as I can. Right now this is still under application because I am still waiting for an approval from UTP but in Monash side they have approved. But I think, UTP will approve after all of my supervisor hardworks.

But the problem is, how about my family?

Do I have to leave my family here for 3 months!! I. Don't. Think. So..

To leave my husband, is one thing and I can handle it (I think). But to leave Delisha for 3 months is the other thing! This one I don't think so! Seriously. I can't imagine how my life without Delisha and I really sure she can't live without me too.. well, she still breastfeed.. I wanted to bring her but who gonna take care of her? My husband is working and he can't take leave for 3 months ( how I wish he could). Maybe at first, I will bring my parents but I don't think they gonna stay for 3 months there as they have a lotttt of things to do here. So, how about Delisha then? urgggghhhh... this question keep playing in my mind every single day.

 No, i'm not gonna leave her here. Oh, please!


Allah. Please help me..

PhD. Reality.

Assalamualaikum,

To be honest, penat sungguh menjadi seorang PhD student . Of course people always thought that PhD students always know EVERYTHING! Yes, EVERYTHING with capital letters. Like me, I am a PhD student in Chemistry. So some of my family, my friends, my students thought that I know EVERYTHING in Chemistry. So, sometimes bila diorang tanya soalan luar alam, and I was just like.. "hah,errrmmm tak sure la pulak.." Then, they will replied like "hah, kata student PhD......, takkan tak tahu..!!" and I was like ptttffffff :p

Common guys, doesn't mean I am a PhD student, I know everything!.. And doesn't mean if I cant answer, then I know nothing! Betul tak? kan!!

Well, this would explain everything. I hope:-

Imagine a circle that contains all of human knowledge:

By the time you finish elementary school, you know a little:

By the time you finish high school, you know a bit more:

With a bachelor's degree, you gain a specialty:

A master's degree deepens that specialty:

Reading research papers takes you to the edge of human knowledge:

Once you're at the boundary, you focus:

You push at the boundary for a few years:

Until one day, the boundary gives way:

And, that dent you've made is called a Ph.D.:

Of course, the world looks different to you now:

So, don't forget the bigger picture:

Keep pushing.

 [Source: http://matt.might.net/articles/phd-school-in-pictures/]

See, Nampak tak? Phd tu tak lain dan tak bukan hanya sebesar ketuat je.. Ketuat pun lagi besar! And please don't underestimate me if I cant answer your question!

Everythings goes wrong!

Assalamualaikum,

 

Oh hari ini sangat malang.

Lepas satu, satu malapetaka datang.

Semuanya mengenai kerja makmal saya.

Alkisahnya begini.

Pagi tadi saya menggunakan rotavap

(*rotavap-sejenis alat untuk memisahkan solvent dari sample)

Ok. Bila dah habis guna, saya pun keluarkan flask sample dari muncung rotavap itu.

Disebabkan suhu yang saya gunakan adalah 80 degree, agak panas juga tangan bila memulas flask itu keluar. So, saya yang kurang cerdik ini membiarkan flask saya yang sudah hampir separa keluar itu begitu sahaja kerana niat nak ambil tisu atau kain untuk lapik tangan. (panaslah katakan)

Sekali tiba-tiba flask sample saya terjatuh ke dalam water bath rotavap itu dan air di water bath itupun masuk ke dalam sample saya. Oh, no! Ok, satu masalah dah.

Tak pasal-pasal perlu rotavap semula untuk mengeluarkan air water bath tadi dari sample. Sebenarnya takut ada contamination juga kerana air di water bath itu bukannya bersih pun.

Okay, sabar...

Then, bila tengah rotavap kali ke dua, tangan saya ni pulak gatal untuk rendahkan pressure untuk jimatkan masa sikit. Tapi bila dah rendahkan pressure, sepatutnya saya harus tunggu takut pressure tersebut tidak sesuai tapi saya boleh pergi ke tandas pulak tu! Balik dari tandas, saya tengok, habis semua sample saya telah disedut oleh rotavap itu. Semuanya!!!! Oh no! Masalah kedua datang.

Boleh tak tiba-tiba saya menangis time tu!

Saya pun ambil balik sample+solvent saya di collecting flask, untuk rotavap semula kali ke3!!

Alhamdulillah berkat kesabaran dan istighfar banyak-banyak, semua solvent dapat di keluarkan dari sample. Yahooo!!

Dengan gembiranya saya ambil sample itu untuk proses seterusnya iaitu washing the sample to precipitate out the excess of reactant. Just wash with acetonitrile and methanol. Then bila dah wash, filter. Alhamdulillah, saya pun dapat produk ionic liquid yang saya nak. Tapi kena rotavap lagi sekali lah. Sebab tadi washing dengan solvent acetonitrile and methanol kan? Okay.. Takpe, rotavap kali ni dengan berhati-hati agar tidak jadi macam tadi.

*rotavap*

Ok, dah sudah! Saya tengok produk saya sikit je sebab banyak yang dah tumpah masa flask jatuh tadi (1st problem). Tapi takpelah. Tapi saya tengok, banyak wap-wap air dalam flask. Air merupakan masalah besar dalam ionic liquid. So, saya pun ambil tisu and forcep untuk lapkan wap air dalam flask tadi. *berhati-hati sebab takut tisu jatuh dalam produk---kang naya!!*

Belum pun sempat minda berkata-kata, tup tup tisu tadi pun dah jatuh dalam flask dan meresap semua produk ionic liquid saya!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (tanda seru banyak sikit!!! sebab ini masalah besar! ) - ini masalah no 3!

Dah lah produk tu punyalah cinonet! Boleh pulak kena makan dengan tisu tu!

Cepat-cepat saya selamatkan ionic liquid saya dari flask dan tuang dalam small vial. Agak separuh jugaklah sample yang diserap oleh tisu tu.

Dalam berhati-hati meletakkan small vial itu di atas meja, boleh pulak vial tu terjatuh lalu separuh dari sample saya tumpah pula atas meja!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!( ini masalah no 4)

Pernah tak rasa nak hantuk kepala kat dinding? Saya pernah. Baru sekejap tadi bila masalah-masalah ini timbul! Bila timbang produk ionic liquid saya hanya 1.8gram sahaja out of 10.0033g. Bila kira percent of yield, 18% sahaja!!!! Omaigod! Serius rasa nak balik je.

Kenapa saya membebel-bebel ni? Tahu tak anda, bahawa proses mensintesis ionic liquid saya sebelum proses rotavap pagi tadi adalah 2 minggu punya kerja dan sangat rumit dan leceh! Dan bayangkan dalam masa satu hari, semua penat lelah selama 2 minggu sebelum ni semuanya sia-sia! Nasib masih ada 1.8gram. Cukuplah untuk simple characterization. Oh, lagi satu. Chemical yang diperlukan untuk mensintesis ionic liquid tadi semuanya sudah habis. *Ok demm--

Tapi dari sudut positifnya, mungkin ada hikmah atas apa yang berlaku. Kita tak tahu. Allah swt tahu. Belajar dari kesilapan itulah pembelajaran terbaik! So, bila beristighfar banyak-banyak, baru tenang sikit. Bila tengok jam pukul 3.38pm, baru teringat diri ini tak solat zohor lagi sebab asyik menyiapkan kerja lab yang bertimpa-timpa dengan masalah tadi. Tapi disebalik semua kecelakaan ini, ada dua benda positif yang ku dapat hari ini. Pertamanya saya dapat submit satu paper ke ICFAS conference di KLCC June tahun hadapan dan yang kedua, duit claim saya yang ke conference IOGSE di Sabah, bulan lepas dah di bank-in kan.. Alhamdulillah..

 

* Mungkin ada yang tidak faham dengan apa yang saya bebelkan tadi. Sorrylah. Sepatutnya tak perlu jadi issue pun tapi sebab tensen punya pasal. Perlu di luahkan!

 

Assalamualaikum..

Hello KK!!

What? Its been two months I didn't update my blog.. In fact, I tak jenguk lansung pun blog ni.. Fuh.. eh, sebelum tu

Assalamualaikum semua..

Hi all, sorry for the late update. I was sooo damn busy back then. I have to complete my research proposal report and at the same time I have to write a paper and send for the conference at Sabah. And Alhamdulillah I managed to done it both. For my Research Proposal Defense (RPD) was going very smoothly and I learnt a lot. Thanks to the panels for some tips, opinion and give some guide to me. At first, of course la rasa gementar, gelabah kan.. I was so nervous kot! ye lah, dah lama tak present. Last present masa VIVA master 2 tahun lepas. Tapi Alhamdulillah, the RPD went so smoothly and I had positive comments from the panels.. Alhamdulillah.. So, back to the conference. My supervisor asked me to submit a paper to conference. So, I chose to go to International Oil and Gas Symposium (IOGSE 2013) at Kota Kinabalu, Sabah. This was organised by Universiti Malaysia Sabah. Why I choose this conference? Because all accepted papers will be published to Journal of Applied Science.. Tak ke two in one tu? Conference dapat, journal pun dapat. And another reason is of course la HOLIDAY!!! hhahaha..

 

Okay, from the beginning I didn't managed to complete and submit the paper to the conference because the full paper deadline is on 30th July 2013.. Ye lah, I was concentrated on doing my proposal report for my RPD. This one lagi penting kot sebab this is for my PhD requirement. Yang conference tu, kalau tak sempat, boleh apply conference lain kan. Tapi Alhamdulillah sempat.. I submitted my paper on end of August.. Hahaha.. sebulan lewat! Tapi Alhamdulillah they still accept! That's all matters..

Erm.. and another thing is I will bring along my family and my parents to KK!! hahaha.. So, yang akan pergi me, my husband, Delisha (my 1yo daughter), my dad and my mom. The reason is i'm still breastfeed my daughter. I still can't find any formula milk that suits her. Semua dia tolak!! So, takut anak kelaparan that's why kena bawak dia n my hubby sekali. Tapi bila fikir-fikir balik, kesian pulak my hubby kena jaga dia sorang-sorang kan. So I asked my parents to join. At least, diorang boleh pusing-pusing KK while I attend the conference kan.. Takdelah hubby I boring je..Yay!!

 

So we gonna fly on 8th October until 12th October.. The funny is, my dad dah booking dah hotel kat Kundasang! Hahaha.. Semangat bercuti punya pasal!! Nampak sangat bercuti sambil berconference. Sepatutnya berconference sambil bercuti.. kekeke..

So, that's all for now. I will update the story about the conference and KK later.

See u then, bye!!