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Assalamualaikum..
Lama sungguh tak update.. last update was on 2014. So, its been a while.. Sooooo..
After 2 years, what have i got so far ehmm..
Tadddaaa.. Alhamdulillah.. We have our new member in family..
Adib Daniel born in 29 February 2016.. perasan tak? Tahun lompat kot.. so it means that his birthday once in 4 years.. hahhahaa.. actually the due date was on 19th Feb, but overdue like 10 days then kena induce pulak.. dapatlah on 29 February.. patutlah org kata induce tu sakit, memang sakit pun.. just imagine, the contraction was just like 2nd phase, tapi baru 3 cm? Whattttt??? Then bila sakit mcm nak teran dah tu, check baru 5 cm??? Masa tu rasa frust sangat sebab doc kata lagi 4, 5 jam.. mak ai, contraction dah selang seminit kot and i have to face this contraction for another 5 hours??? Seriously?? Hahhaa.. tp Alhamdulillah.. from 5 cm to 10 cm dalam setengah jam je.. tak lama pun.. so lahir lah Adib Daniel.. but he after that diagnosed by doc, he has g6pd deficiency.. apa tu???
Mula2 dengar seriously, phd??? Haha. saya tak pernah dengar lansung pasal ni.. bila google and paed doc explain bout this baru faham.. rupanya g6pd ni sejenis enzim dalam darah yang dia takde.. so, sel darah dalam tubuh tu kekurangan enzim g6pd ni.. seumur hidup tau.. so, disebabkan kekurangan enzim ni, dia alah on certain things.. especially KACANG PARANG.. a BIG NO kot.. and ada jugak macam ubat gegat, nila, some of ubat and thats why kalau sakit kena mention kat doc he has g6pd def then doc will understand.. and because i am brestfeed mom, saya pun kena ikut pantang jugak..
mula2 sedih kot.. especially when doc told me that babies with this def must to stay at hosp for at least 5 days since born to monitor jaundice.. sebab baby with this def, senang naik jaundice.. Masa tu dah berjurai air mata sebab nangis nak balik.. Yelah, orang lain dah balik kot, boleh bersuka ria kat rumah dengan baby baru.. Tapi Alhamdulillah i just stay like 4 days je coz the reading is in the range but still have to monitor for a few days after discharge. Macam saya, i just like 2 days after discharge je went to clinic to check the reading lepas tu dah ok dah.. Alhamdulillah.. banyakkan menyusu baby.. itu je caranya..lagi banyak menyusu, lagi banyak baby berak, lagi bagusss... masa kena admit wad nicu tu, cabaran tinggi betul.. tapi memang kena selalu istighfar,tawakal.. time ni sokongan parents penting sangat.. Yelah, orang lain dah balik, kita still kat wad lagi.. mulalah emosi tak stabil.. dengan baby menangis taknak duduk bawah lampu tapi kena paksa jugak for his own good.. and baby still menangis and momies lain pun dah jeling2 mengeluh sebab anak diorang pun macam dh nak start menangis jugak.. hohoho, memang cabaran betul.. serba salah dibuatnya.. Tapi nak buat macamana kan.. baby kot..
Hahaha.. tetibe macam luahan perasaan perasaan cums with membebel. erk.

So, now adib dah 5 bulan.. Alhamdulillah.. membesar bagaikan juara.. hhehehe.. so i think enough kot of this membebel.. hahahha.. will update later..
Bai.

Salam dari Monash

Hi,

Remember my last post on the attachment studies in Monash, Australia?

And now, I'm hereee......

(hoorayyyyy)

Its been a month actually.. and another two months to go! Cepat betul masa berlalu.. Pejam celik, pejam celik.. and right now I'm still struggling on my research especially on synthesis part. Oh God, how I wish I could bring my sample from UTP so I don't have to synthesize it again. But you know, bring the chemicals with you in a flight after the MH370 tragedy and a very tight security and immigration in Australia with a dog and you have to open your luggage for checking is.. I don't think so..

*please pray for me so that I can finish my research here*

Well, do you still remember on my last post, bout who gonna take care of Delisha while I'm here..?

Tadaaaaa.. my mom! Love u mum!

And lucky, my mom will stay with me for three months and my dad he went back to Malaysia alone. Not actually alone but he went back to Malaysia with my husband and MIL, FIL. Yes, my husband came with his family for two weeks here and they all flew back to Malaysia in a same flight with abah. Nasib abah kasi mak tinggal sini.. sob sob sob.. Tapi kesian jugak kat abah sebab tinggal sorang-sorang.. love u mum and dad!

I am so busy here as I'm going for study.. So, Monday to Friday is my working day so I just got Saturday and Sunday for shopping and outing. But luckily, during the weeks when my husband and family was here, there were a public holiday with a longggggg weekend. From Friday (good Friday), Saturday, Sunday, Monday and Tuesday (Easter holiday) and Friday (Anzac day). Hooraayyy...

So we went several places like Royal Botanical garden, Werribee zoo, Brighton beach, Shopping at DFO, and others (tak ingat pulak) but basically in a city. We wanted to rent an 18 seater car to go to Philip Island but it all rent out.


I will upload the picture later..

See you in a next post..

Babai..

Dilemma.

Assalamualaikum,

Pejam celik pejam celik almost 1 year I'm being a PhD student. And when I look back, what is my achievement so far.

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NOTHING!


To be honest, I don't know what have I done in last one year! And the answer is nothing than a bad result. Of course, some results were good but some were not. At first, I was thought that my research is quite easy and simple but it all end up like ggggrrrrrrrrr... [huh]

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Okay, This is a different stories.

Actually I am in BIG dilemma..


MAYBE, I have to go to MONASH University in Clayton, Australia for three months. This is for attachment studies. My supervisor wanted me to utilize the CO2 equipment in Monash and gain some new knowledge and experience in ILs. Of course this is like a golden opportunity for me to learn a new knowledge and gain an experience as much as I can. Right now this is still under application because I am still waiting for an approval from UTP but in Monash side they have approved. But I think, UTP will approve after all of my supervisor hardworks.

But the problem is, how about my family?

Do I have to leave my family here for 3 months!! I. Don't. Think. So..

To leave my husband, is one thing and I can handle it (I think). But to leave Delisha for 3 months is the other thing! This one I don't think so! Seriously. I can't imagine how my life without Delisha and I really sure she can't live without me too.. well, she still breastfeed.. I wanted to bring her but who gonna take care of her? My husband is working and he can't take leave for 3 months ( how I wish he could). Maybe at first, I will bring my parents but I don't think they gonna stay for 3 months there as they have a lotttt of things to do here. So, how about Delisha then? urgggghhhh... this question keep playing in my mind every single day.

 No, i'm not gonna leave her here. Oh, please!


Allah. Please help me..

PhD. Reality.

Assalamualaikum,

To be honest, penat sungguh menjadi seorang PhD student . Of course people always thought that PhD students always know EVERYTHING! Yes, EVERYTHING with capital letters. Like me, I am a PhD student in Chemistry. So some of my family, my friends, my students thought that I know EVERYTHING in Chemistry. So, sometimes bila diorang tanya soalan luar alam, and I was just like.. "hah,errrmmm tak sure la pulak.." Then, they will replied like "hah, kata student PhD......, takkan tak tahu..!!" and I was like ptttffffff :p

Common guys, doesn't mean I am a PhD student, I know everything!.. And doesn't mean if I cant answer, then I know nothing! Betul tak? kan!!

Well, this would explain everything. I hope:-

Imagine a circle that contains all of human knowledge:

By the time you finish elementary school, you know a little:

By the time you finish high school, you know a bit more:

With a bachelor's degree, you gain a specialty:

A master's degree deepens that specialty:

Reading research papers takes you to the edge of human knowledge:

Once you're at the boundary, you focus:

You push at the boundary for a few years:

Until one day, the boundary gives way:

And, that dent you've made is called a Ph.D.:

Of course, the world looks different to you now:

So, don't forget the bigger picture:

Keep pushing.

 [Source: http://matt.might.net/articles/phd-school-in-pictures/]

See, Nampak tak? Phd tu tak lain dan tak bukan hanya sebesar ketuat je.. Ketuat pun lagi besar! And please don't underestimate me if I cant answer your question!

Everythings goes wrong!

Assalamualaikum,

 

Oh hari ini sangat malang.

Lepas satu, satu malapetaka datang.

Semuanya mengenai kerja makmal saya.

Alkisahnya begini.

Pagi tadi saya menggunakan rotavap

(*rotavap-sejenis alat untuk memisahkan solvent dari sample)

Ok. Bila dah habis guna, saya pun keluarkan flask sample dari muncung rotavap itu.

Disebabkan suhu yang saya gunakan adalah 80 degree, agak panas juga tangan bila memulas flask itu keluar. So, saya yang kurang cerdik ini membiarkan flask saya yang sudah hampir separa keluar itu begitu sahaja kerana niat nak ambil tisu atau kain untuk lapik tangan. (panaslah katakan)

Sekali tiba-tiba flask sample saya terjatuh ke dalam water bath rotavap itu dan air di water bath itupun masuk ke dalam sample saya. Oh, no! Ok, satu masalah dah.

Tak pasal-pasal perlu rotavap semula untuk mengeluarkan air water bath tadi dari sample. Sebenarnya takut ada contamination juga kerana air di water bath itu bukannya bersih pun.

Okay, sabar...

Then, bila tengah rotavap kali ke dua, tangan saya ni pulak gatal untuk rendahkan pressure untuk jimatkan masa sikit. Tapi bila dah rendahkan pressure, sepatutnya saya harus tunggu takut pressure tersebut tidak sesuai tapi saya boleh pergi ke tandas pulak tu! Balik dari tandas, saya tengok, habis semua sample saya telah disedut oleh rotavap itu. Semuanya!!!! Oh no! Masalah kedua datang.

Boleh tak tiba-tiba saya menangis time tu!

Saya pun ambil balik sample+solvent saya di collecting flask, untuk rotavap semula kali ke3!!

Alhamdulillah berkat kesabaran dan istighfar banyak-banyak, semua solvent dapat di keluarkan dari sample. Yahooo!!

Dengan gembiranya saya ambil sample itu untuk proses seterusnya iaitu washing the sample to precipitate out the excess of reactant. Just wash with acetonitrile and methanol. Then bila dah wash, filter. Alhamdulillah, saya pun dapat produk ionic liquid yang saya nak. Tapi kena rotavap lagi sekali lah. Sebab tadi washing dengan solvent acetonitrile and methanol kan? Okay.. Takpe, rotavap kali ni dengan berhati-hati agar tidak jadi macam tadi.

*rotavap*

Ok, dah sudah! Saya tengok produk saya sikit je sebab banyak yang dah tumpah masa flask jatuh tadi (1st problem). Tapi takpelah. Tapi saya tengok, banyak wap-wap air dalam flask. Air merupakan masalah besar dalam ionic liquid. So, saya pun ambil tisu and forcep untuk lapkan wap air dalam flask tadi. *berhati-hati sebab takut tisu jatuh dalam produk---kang naya!!*

Belum pun sempat minda berkata-kata, tup tup tisu tadi pun dah jatuh dalam flask dan meresap semua produk ionic liquid saya!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (tanda seru banyak sikit!!! sebab ini masalah besar! ) - ini masalah no 3!

Dah lah produk tu punyalah cinonet! Boleh pulak kena makan dengan tisu tu!

Cepat-cepat saya selamatkan ionic liquid saya dari flask dan tuang dalam small vial. Agak separuh jugaklah sample yang diserap oleh tisu tu.

Dalam berhati-hati meletakkan small vial itu di atas meja, boleh pulak vial tu terjatuh lalu separuh dari sample saya tumpah pula atas meja!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!( ini masalah no 4)

Pernah tak rasa nak hantuk kepala kat dinding? Saya pernah. Baru sekejap tadi bila masalah-masalah ini timbul! Bila timbang produk ionic liquid saya hanya 1.8gram sahaja out of 10.0033g. Bila kira percent of yield, 18% sahaja!!!! Omaigod! Serius rasa nak balik je.

Kenapa saya membebel-bebel ni? Tahu tak anda, bahawa proses mensintesis ionic liquid saya sebelum proses rotavap pagi tadi adalah 2 minggu punya kerja dan sangat rumit dan leceh! Dan bayangkan dalam masa satu hari, semua penat lelah selama 2 minggu sebelum ni semuanya sia-sia! Nasib masih ada 1.8gram. Cukuplah untuk simple characterization. Oh, lagi satu. Chemical yang diperlukan untuk mensintesis ionic liquid tadi semuanya sudah habis. *Ok demm--

Tapi dari sudut positifnya, mungkin ada hikmah atas apa yang berlaku. Kita tak tahu. Allah swt tahu. Belajar dari kesilapan itulah pembelajaran terbaik! So, bila beristighfar banyak-banyak, baru tenang sikit. Bila tengok jam pukul 3.38pm, baru teringat diri ini tak solat zohor lagi sebab asyik menyiapkan kerja lab yang bertimpa-timpa dengan masalah tadi. Tapi disebalik semua kecelakaan ini, ada dua benda positif yang ku dapat hari ini. Pertamanya saya dapat submit satu paper ke ICFAS conference di KLCC June tahun hadapan dan yang kedua, duit claim saya yang ke conference IOGSE di Sabah, bulan lepas dah di bank-in kan.. Alhamdulillah..

 

* Mungkin ada yang tidak faham dengan apa yang saya bebelkan tadi. Sorrylah. Sepatutnya tak perlu jadi issue pun tapi sebab tensen punya pasal. Perlu di luahkan!

 

Assalamualaikum..

Tips for mommy-to-be

Assalamualaikum semua.

Okay, harini saya sangat rajin sebab nak bagi tips yang sangat berguna to all mommy-to-be on how to handle your newborn baby, how to handle them when they cry, how to breastfeed them, how to bath them, how to.. how to.. how to.. Well, the tips is not actually from me. It is actually came from this book. Taaadaaaa

 

 

Actually this book is translated to Bahasa Melayu. Seriously, for me buku ini sangat berguna since I get pregnant until now and after on. For pregnancy women, it really helps you a lot on your diet, what you should eat, what actually happened to your body, what is the baby looks like in your tummy, what is the baby development and so on. And this book also educate you what you should do for every weeks of your pregnancy. The best thing is its explain on what you should do when your contraction came.  How should you breath during contraction, how should you breath to push the baby out. Pendek kata, semua benda dia cerita secara detail. Ops, dah nama pun buku orang putih kan, so model and gambar-gambar banyak yang sensored la kan. But who cares!! Untuk pembelajaran kot. So for me, this book is very useful to all mommy-to-be. It helps you a lot emotionally and physically.  Especially masa mula-mula lepas bersalin. Macam mana nak dukung baby, nak susukan anak, nak mandikan anak pun tak reti. Kekok katanya. Biasalah first time kan. In fact, I still depends on this book until now. Thanks to my sister who bought this book and for your information this book was handover from my eldest sister to my 2nd sister then to 3rd sister and lastly to me. Sampai lunyai-lunyai dah.. hohoho..

 

Okay tips yang kedua adalah khas untuk ibu-ibu yang bekerja yang ingin menyusukan anak menggunakan susu ibu

 

'Perah susu anda sebanyak yang boleh lepas anda bersalin'

 

Ini untuk stock susu anak anda semasa anda bekerja nanti.

 

This tips coming from my mistakes. Dulu tak ada siapa nak bagi tips dan salah diri jugak sendiri sebab tak tanya dan tak study mengenai penyusuan ni. Pam susu pun tak beli. Then lepas bersalin, breast bengkak susu sampai basah-basah baju sebab susu asyik meleleh keluar kan. Anak pulak masa tu asyik tidur je.. Masa tu tak teringat langsung pun nak perah. So, I just let it bengkak dan sumbat je small towel dalam bra sebab takut basah baju.

 

Bila anak dah sebulan barulah terkial-kial nak beli pam susu dan buat stok. Haaa.. amik kau!! Masa tu anak tu dah pandai dah.. hisap botol pun dah tak nak! Asyik nak nenennnnnn je.. Setiap 2 jam mesti merengek nak nenen. So, bilanya nak buat stok kalau dah 2 jam asyik nak nenen je? Breast pun masa tu dah tak sempat nak bengkak. Masa tu mula lah menyumpah seranah diri sendiri.. Masa susu banyak dulu kau pergi bazirkan, taknak pam untuk buat stok. Bila dah lagi 2 minggu nak masuk kerja baru terkial-kial! Time tu bila perah memang dapat sikit je la dan time tu jugaklah nak ajar anak hisap susu pakai botol. Memang dia menangis, meraung tak mahu!! Bila anak menangis macam tu, mama dia pun apa lagi, menangis la jugak!! haru betul.. Pernah jugak minta tolong suami tolong bagikan susu botol maybe anak tahu bau badan ibu dia kan. That's why dia refuse kot tapi still dia tak nak!! Hah, time tu punyalah menyesal...ish..ish... Nasib baik saya dapat sediakan 5 botol stok susu itupun setelah berhempas pulas memerah dan nasib baik bila hantar anak ke rumah pengasuh, dia nak pulak hisap susu pakai botol. Thanks to NUK bottle (saya ada cerita mengenai NUK bottle di sini). Tapi bila pengasuh bagi je lah.. Bila balik rumah, try bagi susu dalam botol, memang dia taknak sampai SEKARANG! Dan disebabkan stok susu saya tak banyak, saya perlu memerah susu setiap hari di tempat kerja time lunch and before balik kerja for tomorrow punya stok. And that is what i'm doing until now! No, i'm not complaining! Kerana disebabkan Delisha tolak susu botol dan susu formula, Alhamdulillah saya dapat berikan susu ibu sepenuhnya kepada Delisha sehingga kini. Walaupun sekarang masih lagi mencuba untuk mencari susu formula yang sesuai untuk Delisha. Almaklumlah, anak dah setahun, demand makin tinggi tapi susu makin kurang. Kesian kat anak sebab sanggup berlapar tunggu mama dia balik kerja gara-gara lapar susu.

 

So, apa pengajaran yang anda dapat dari cerita saya tadi?

 

1) Perah susu anda sejak dari lepas bersalin lagi. Jangan bila dah sebulan, dah nak masuk kerja, time tu lah kau nak perah susu bagai..

 

2) Ajar anak hisap susu botol. Kalau sesiapa yang nak fully breastfeed dan bekerja, boleh guna susu yang anda perah dan letak dalam botol susu.

 

3) Pada sesiapa yang nak campur susu ibu dengan formula milk (mungkin susu badan terhad), ajar anak minum susu formula dari awal lagi. Kalau tak,memang susah nak ajar anak minum susu formula sebab dia dah terbiasa minum susu ibu sejak lahir lagi. Sedap sangat katanya.

 

This is based from my experienced being a new mom!! Masing-masing ada pendapat dan pengalaman yang berbeza. So, it depends!

 

Just my 2cents.

 

 

 

 

 

Hello KK!!

What? Its been two months I didn't update my blog.. In fact, I tak jenguk lansung pun blog ni.. Fuh.. eh, sebelum tu

Assalamualaikum semua..

Hi all, sorry for the late update. I was sooo damn busy back then. I have to complete my research proposal report and at the same time I have to write a paper and send for the conference at Sabah. And Alhamdulillah I managed to done it both. For my Research Proposal Defense (RPD) was going very smoothly and I learnt a lot. Thanks to the panels for some tips, opinion and give some guide to me. At first, of course la rasa gementar, gelabah kan.. I was so nervous kot! ye lah, dah lama tak present. Last present masa VIVA master 2 tahun lepas. Tapi Alhamdulillah, the RPD went so smoothly and I had positive comments from the panels.. Alhamdulillah.. So, back to the conference. My supervisor asked me to submit a paper to conference. So, I chose to go to International Oil and Gas Symposium (IOGSE 2013) at Kota Kinabalu, Sabah. This was organised by Universiti Malaysia Sabah. Why I choose this conference? Because all accepted papers will be published to Journal of Applied Science.. Tak ke two in one tu? Conference dapat, journal pun dapat. And another reason is of course la HOLIDAY!!! hhahaha..

 

Okay, from the beginning I didn't managed to complete and submit the paper to the conference because the full paper deadline is on 30th July 2013.. Ye lah, I was concentrated on doing my proposal report for my RPD. This one lagi penting kot sebab this is for my PhD requirement. Yang conference tu, kalau tak sempat, boleh apply conference lain kan. Tapi Alhamdulillah sempat.. I submitted my paper on end of August.. Hahaha.. sebulan lewat! Tapi Alhamdulillah they still accept! That's all matters..

Erm.. and another thing is I will bring along my family and my parents to KK!! hahaha.. So, yang akan pergi me, my husband, Delisha (my 1yo daughter), my dad and my mom. The reason is i'm still breastfeed my daughter. I still can't find any formula milk that suits her. Semua dia tolak!! So, takut anak kelaparan that's why kena bawak dia n my hubby sekali. Tapi bila fikir-fikir balik, kesian pulak my hubby kena jaga dia sorang-sorang kan. So I asked my parents to join. At least, diorang boleh pusing-pusing KK while I attend the conference kan.. Takdelah hubby I boring je..Yay!!

 

So we gonna fly on 8th October until 12th October.. The funny is, my dad dah booking dah hotel kat Kundasang! Hahaha.. Semangat bercuti punya pasal!! Nampak sangat bercuti sambil berconference. Sepatutnya berconference sambil bercuti.. kekeke..

So, that's all for now. I will update the story about the conference and KK later.

See u then, bye!!