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Sebenarnya saya selalu terfikir, am i doing a right thing? i mean my PhD.

Especially when you doing this for almost 4 years and still hoping that you can finish this soon. It is so sad when you compare yourself with your friends. They have career but i have none. I'm still struggling with my studies with just monthly allowance (sometimes no) and your friends earn higher salary income.. This is sad. But i'm happy for them.. They success after all.

But what ever it is, i know this is the best for me.. Allah swt akan beri yang terbaik untuk setiap hamba-hambaNya.. kan? And lucky me i have my husband yang sangat supportive! He is the best! To be honest, i kept complaining about this to him. Especially bout my studies and this thing that i don't have a career la bla..bla..and compare myself with my friends.. bla..bla.. 

And he said, please don't compare.. Kita patut bersyukur dengan apa yang Allah dah beri pada kita.. Tak henti-henti rezeki yang Allah beri.. Although i'm still a student but we have our own house, car, our gorgeous kids and we still happy with our lives.. we still can go for holiday, we have times with family.. Semua ini rezeki.. 

And when you compare yourself with a people yang lagi susah dari kita, kita akan lebih bersyukur.. Ada yang lagi susah dari kita.. So, jangan tengok atas, tapi tengok bawah..

Yeah, indeed!

Whatever it is, i am so blessed. Even though, we may not rich like others but we are blessed with all we have and we know Allah will give the best to us.. 

So, no complaining please! 

p/s: Actually this post is for me.. I want to remind my self all the time.. keh keh keh.. 

Ini kerja berfaedah saya.

Bila kau rasa malas nak buat semua benda padahal banyak benda kau kena buat. Lepas tu kau terpikir yang kerja kau menimbun lepas tu kau biar je menimbun dan kau buat kerja lain yang tak berfaedah. Dan kau rasa kerja yang tak berfaedah tu sangat berfaedah pada kau lah.

Pernah tak rasa macam ni?

Saya selalu.

Ok. saya menang.

-gadis loser- (eikk.. gadis?). Ok,

-mak orang loser

Bila rambut macam dah tak ada

Assalamualaikum
Bila adik asyik main air liur.. dah menyembur.. orang tua tua kata gugur lah rambut si ibu.. tapi sampai bila? Menakutkan kot... sungguh. Seram.
Dulu masa si kakak, tak teruk gugur macam ni..
Bila tgk lantai, rasa macam kedai gunting rambut. Jenuh menyapu.. kadang biar ja.. malas. Sebab tahu nanti gugur lagi. Sapu lagi.
Meh blanja gambar adik 5 bulan..
Biarlah rambut gugur, mata panda, penat segala.. berbaloi. Demi kamu..

Introducing new member

Assalamualaikum..
Lama sungguh tak update.. last update was on 2014. So, its been a while.. Sooooo..
After 2 years, what have i got so far ehmm..
Tadddaaa.. Alhamdulillah.. We have our new member in family..
Adib Daniel born in 29 February 2016.. perasan tak? Tahun lompat kot.. so it means that his birthday once in 4 years.. hahhahaa.. actually the due date was on 19th Feb, but overdue like 10 days then kena induce pulak.. dapatlah on 29 February.. patutlah org kata induce tu sakit, memang sakit pun.. just imagine, the contraction was just like 2nd phase, tapi baru 3 cm? Whattttt??? Then bila sakit mcm nak teran dah tu, check baru 5 cm??? Masa tu rasa frust sangat sebab doc kata lagi 4, 5 jam.. mak ai, contraction dah selang seminit kot and i have to face this contraction for another 5 hours??? Seriously?? Hahhaa.. tp Alhamdulillah.. from 5 cm to 10 cm dalam setengah jam je.. tak lama pun.. so lahir lah Adib Daniel.. but he after that diagnosed by doc, he has g6pd deficiency.. apa tu???
Mula2 dengar seriously, phd??? Haha. saya tak pernah dengar lansung pasal ni.. bila google and paed doc explain bout this baru faham.. rupanya g6pd ni sejenis enzim dalam darah yang dia takde.. so, sel darah dalam tubuh tu kekurangan enzim g6pd ni.. seumur hidup tau.. so, disebabkan kekurangan enzim ni, dia alah on certain things.. especially KACANG PARANG.. a BIG NO kot.. and ada jugak macam ubat gegat, nila, some of ubat and thats why kalau sakit kena mention kat doc he has g6pd def then doc will understand.. and because i am brestfeed mom, saya pun kena ikut pantang jugak..
mula2 sedih kot.. especially when doc told me that babies with this def must to stay at hosp for at least 5 days since born to monitor jaundice.. sebab baby with this def, senang naik jaundice.. Masa tu dah berjurai air mata sebab nangis nak balik.. Yelah, orang lain dah balik kot, boleh bersuka ria kat rumah dengan baby baru.. Tapi Alhamdulillah i just stay like 4 days je coz the reading is in the range but still have to monitor for a few days after discharge. Macam saya, i just like 2 days after discharge je went to clinic to check the reading lepas tu dah ok dah.. Alhamdulillah.. banyakkan menyusu baby.. itu je caranya..lagi banyak menyusu, lagi banyak baby berak, lagi bagusss... masa kena admit wad nicu tu, cabaran tinggi betul.. tapi memang kena selalu istighfar,tawakal.. time ni sokongan parents penting sangat.. Yelah, orang lain dah balik, kita still kat wad lagi.. mulalah emosi tak stabil.. dengan baby menangis taknak duduk bawah lampu tapi kena paksa jugak for his own good.. and baby still menangis and momies lain pun dah jeling2 mengeluh sebab anak diorang pun macam dh nak start menangis jugak.. hohoho, memang cabaran betul.. serba salah dibuatnya.. Tapi nak buat macamana kan.. baby kot..
Hahaha.. tetibe macam luahan perasaan perasaan cums with membebel. erk.

So, now adib dah 5 bulan.. Alhamdulillah.. membesar bagaikan juara.. hhehehe.. so i think enough kot of this membebel.. hahahha.. will update later..
Bai.

Salam dari Monash

Hi,

Remember my last post on the attachment studies in Monash, Australia?

And now, I'm hereee......

(hoorayyyyy)

Its been a month actually.. and another two months to go! Cepat betul masa berlalu.. Pejam celik, pejam celik.. and right now I'm still struggling on my research especially on synthesis part. Oh God, how I wish I could bring my sample from UTP so I don't have to synthesize it again. But you know, bring the chemicals with you in a flight after the MH370 tragedy and a very tight security and immigration in Australia with a dog and you have to open your luggage for checking is.. I don't think so..

*please pray for me so that I can finish my research here*

Well, do you still remember on my last post, bout who gonna take care of Delisha while I'm here..?

Tadaaaaa.. my mom! Love u mum!

And lucky, my mom will stay with me for three months and my dad he went back to Malaysia alone. Not actually alone but he went back to Malaysia with my husband and MIL, FIL. Yes, my husband came with his family for two weeks here and they all flew back to Malaysia in a same flight with abah. Nasib abah kasi mak tinggal sini.. sob sob sob.. Tapi kesian jugak kat abah sebab tinggal sorang-sorang.. love u mum and dad!

I am so busy here as I'm going for study.. So, Monday to Friday is my working day so I just got Saturday and Sunday for shopping and outing. But luckily, during the weeks when my husband and family was here, there were a public holiday with a longggggg weekend. From Friday (good Friday), Saturday, Sunday, Monday and Tuesday (Easter holiday) and Friday (Anzac day). Hooraayyy...

So we went several places like Royal Botanical garden, Werribee zoo, Brighton beach, Shopping at DFO, and others (tak ingat pulak) but basically in a city. We wanted to rent an 18 seater car to go to Philip Island but it all rent out.


I will upload the picture later..

See you in a next post..

Babai..

Dilemma.

Assalamualaikum,

Pejam celik pejam celik almost 1 year I'm being a PhD student. And when I look back, what is my achievement so far.

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NOTHING!


To be honest, I don't know what have I done in last one year! And the answer is nothing than a bad result. Of course, some results were good but some were not. At first, I was thought that my research is quite easy and simple but it all end up like ggggrrrrrrrrr... [huh]

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Okay, This is a different stories.

Actually I am in BIG dilemma..


MAYBE, I have to go to MONASH University in Clayton, Australia for three months. This is for attachment studies. My supervisor wanted me to utilize the CO2 equipment in Monash and gain some new knowledge and experience in ILs. Of course this is like a golden opportunity for me to learn a new knowledge and gain an experience as much as I can. Right now this is still under application because I am still waiting for an approval from UTP but in Monash side they have approved. But I think, UTP will approve after all of my supervisor hardworks.

But the problem is, how about my family?

Do I have to leave my family here for 3 months!! I. Don't. Think. So..

To leave my husband, is one thing and I can handle it (I think). But to leave Delisha for 3 months is the other thing! This one I don't think so! Seriously. I can't imagine how my life without Delisha and I really sure she can't live without me too.. well, she still breastfeed.. I wanted to bring her but who gonna take care of her? My husband is working and he can't take leave for 3 months ( how I wish he could). Maybe at first, I will bring my parents but I don't think they gonna stay for 3 months there as they have a lotttt of things to do here. So, how about Delisha then? urgggghhhh... this question keep playing in my mind every single day.

 No, i'm not gonna leave her here. Oh, please!


Allah. Please help me..

PhD. Reality.

Assalamualaikum,

To be honest, penat sungguh menjadi seorang PhD student . Of course people always thought that PhD students always know EVERYTHING! Yes, EVERYTHING with capital letters. Like me, I am a PhD student in Chemistry. So some of my family, my friends, my students thought that I know EVERYTHING in Chemistry. So, sometimes bila diorang tanya soalan luar alam, and I was just like.. "hah,errrmmm tak sure la pulak.." Then, they will replied like "hah, kata student PhD......, takkan tak tahu..!!" and I was like ptttffffff :p

Common guys, doesn't mean I am a PhD student, I know everything!.. And doesn't mean if I cant answer, then I know nothing! Betul tak? kan!!

Well, this would explain everything. I hope:-

Imagine a circle that contains all of human knowledge:

By the time you finish elementary school, you know a little:

By the time you finish high school, you know a bit more:

With a bachelor's degree, you gain a specialty:

A master's degree deepens that specialty:

Reading research papers takes you to the edge of human knowledge:

Once you're at the boundary, you focus:

You push at the boundary for a few years:

Until one day, the boundary gives way:

And, that dent you've made is called a Ph.D.:

Of course, the world looks different to you now:

So, don't forget the bigger picture:

Keep pushing.

 [Source: http://matt.might.net/articles/phd-school-in-pictures/]

See, Nampak tak? Phd tu tak lain dan tak bukan hanya sebesar ketuat je.. Ketuat pun lagi besar! And please don't underestimate me if I cant answer your question!