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Monday 17 February 2014

Dilemma.

Assalamualaikum,

Pejam celik pejam celik almost 1 year I'm being a PhD student. And when I look back, what is my achievement so far.

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NOTHING!


To be honest, I don't know what have I done in last one year! And the answer is nothing than a bad result. Of course, some results were good but some were not. At first, I was thought that my research is quite easy and simple but it all end up like ggggrrrrrrrrr... [huh]

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Okay, This is a different stories.

Actually I am in BIG dilemma..


MAYBE, I have to go to MONASH University in Clayton, Australia for three months. This is for attachment studies. My supervisor wanted me to utilize the CO2 equipment in Monash and gain some new knowledge and experience in ILs. Of course this is like a golden opportunity for me to learn a new knowledge and gain an experience as much as I can. Right now this is still under application because I am still waiting for an approval from UTP but in Monash side they have approved. But I think, UTP will approve after all of my supervisor hardworks.

But the problem is, how about my family?

Do I have to leave my family here for 3 months!! I. Don't. Think. So..

To leave my husband, is one thing and I can handle it (I think). But to leave Delisha for 3 months is the other thing! This one I don't think so! Seriously. I can't imagine how my life without Delisha and I really sure she can't live without me too.. well, she still breastfeed.. I wanted to bring her but who gonna take care of her? My husband is working and he can't take leave for 3 months ( how I wish he could). Maybe at first, I will bring my parents but I don't think they gonna stay for 3 months there as they have a lotttt of things to do here. So, how about Delisha then? urgggghhhh... this question keep playing in my mind every single day.

 No, i'm not gonna leave her here. Oh, please!


Allah. Please help me..

PhD. Reality.


Assalamualaikum,

To be honest, penat sungguh menjadi seorang PhD student . Of course people always thought that PhD students always know EVERYTHING! Yes, EVERYTHING with capital letters. Like me, I am a PhD student in Chemistry. So some of my family, my friends, my students thought that I know EVERYTHING in Chemistry. So, sometimes bila diorang tanya soalan luar alam, and I was just like.. "hah,errrmmm tak sure la pulak.." Then, they will replied like "hah, kata student PhD......, takkan tak tahu..!!" and I was like ptttffffff :p

Common guys, doesn't mean I am a PhD student, I know everything!.. And doesn't mean if I cant answer, then I know nothing! Betul tak? kan!!

Well, this would explain everything. I hope:-

Imagine a circle that contains all of human knowledge:

By the time you finish elementary school, you know a little:

By the time you finish high school, you know a bit more:

With a bachelor's degree, you gain a specialty:

A master's degree deepens that specialty:

Reading research papers takes you to the edge of human knowledge:

Once you're at the boundary, you focus:

You push at the boundary for a few years:

Until one day, the boundary gives way:


And, that dent you've made is called a Ph.D.:


Of course, the world looks different to you now:


So, don't forget the bigger picture:


Keep pushing.

 [Source: http://matt.might.net/articles/phd-school-in-pictures/]

See, Nampak tak? Phd tu tak lain dan tak bukan hanya sebesar ketuat je.. Ketuat pun lagi besar! And please don't underestimate me if I cant answer your question!